The Lord is so good and He loves you so much.
Our Father in Heaven keeps his promises, He does not change.
He will help you! Whoever you are, no matter what you have done in the past, wherever you are, ask Jesus-Christ, the King of Kings who died willingly on the cross so that you can have eternal life, that is if you follow him.
In the bible, the Gospel of John (ch 8 v12) says: When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”